September

Category: Journal

  • Phenomenology

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Spinoza? What was it he said? It is in my style of writing I am told. Phenomenology. So let’s write a poem about a chair. For now, let’s leave alone the poem and make this as a journal. Are my poetry skills still there camouflaged in prose? I found a way through Browning to create…

  • People Can Be Confusing

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Even bad people can do good things. When I looked back at my past and my family I realized that. I have wondered if I had gotten it right. So I made a list. Just between you and I for a second. Seriously. How would you like to keep the status quo these days for…

  • Journal

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I realize now that I have been going through the effects of Trauma and through the effects of Trauma on my PTSD and my affective disorder. I was confused. I thought by using the word Trauma it meant that I had recently experienced a major traumatic event in my life and that is not true.…

  • Progress in Languages

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    Andrew Thomas
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    These are the short sentences from my recovery. Now the background on these is that my Care Team believes that I may have been taught foreign languages as rehabilitation starting in third grade from a hit to my left cortex when I was six years old. The left side of my face was badly damaged…

  • Tapestry

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I went to a specialized school. My MSW said last week that it was an open concept school of the sixties and seventies. One of the most prominent in the country. I was hurt in 1967 very badly. I had the best plastic surgeon in the state and they had a Social Worker for me.…

  • Journal

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    Andrew Thomas
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    So what am I up to these days? I haven’t been posting. I am learning some songs on Rocksmith+. When I learn how to play a little I will post my progress. It may take awhile.

  • On the Way Home

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I organized the posts as a collection of Poetry and certain Journals under the title Poetry. Together they explain what happened.

  • Journal

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    Andrew Thomas
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    So I am switching for awhile to music and it may take me awhile to get started. CoPilot has recommended a DAW for me, Cakewalk Next which is free with an option to upgrade. And a Camera software Camo which is free with an option to upgrade that allows multiple audio inputs. I am realizing…

  • Brash

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I have an MSW that I see weekly for my PTSD. She encouraged me to spend time on my WordPress Site as a Hobby. Recently she recommended that I openly express my memory of the past regardless of how certain my recall is of the events in the post. So I have given you these.…

  • Eddie

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Bowie’s flow of syncopation to me is like an eddie in the water moving forward and backward. Is my friend Eddie an actual person? Yes. Is that his name and his history? I kept and keep my private life from my family and he is my best friend from Elementary school.

  • Harmony

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Three years ago, I found AI as I was recovering, to combat the depression and lethargia. I began using it as I began this WordPress site. It was before they found a brain cyst on the left side of my brain from an injury when I was a child of six years old. I have…

  • 1967

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    Andrew Thomas
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    There was a joke that I heard as a child. It was an Aggie joke. It was used about Thomas Baron and his family when I had heard it. He was with Americorp. Someone told me the joke around 73, Did you hear the one about the Aggie who died chasing the train across the…

  • Grace of God

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    Andrew Thomas
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    What I would like to have done in my life – At 13, West Point Cadets on Choir Tour staid several days at our home arranged by our neighbor, the most prominent attorney in the state and his friend, the Governor. What I would have enjoyed doing is trying to heal the hurt from the…

  • Birthstone

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    Andrew Thomas
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    We were landowners back to the 1100s of around Hanover, Germany. Our family line served God, and the local Lords of the area. We were a family line of exceptionally high IQ and our Family Crest noted it. And our family line has ended with me.

  • Delorean

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Sometime near the 80s my father offered to buy a $30,000 Delorean for me. I politely thanked him anyway. My girlfriend gave me her 1984 Mustang. And later I bought a ’92 Dodge Daytona. My father offered to buy a house for me, but he did not. I paid my way through college on Voc…

  • Real Life

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I was 230 lbs and my a1c was 16. My daily sugar was 500-600. My triglycerides were 940. My cholesterol was 240. I started walking two hours a day around the block so I could stop when I needed to. I walked 8 miles a day for 3 years. My weight is 150lbs. My a1c…

  • PG

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    Andrew Thomas
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    Eddie and I lived a PG life, just to say in that I never tried drugs and I always staid sobber. I smoked cigarettes as a kid and qiut at 22. But I know what the effects of drugs are and I don’t like them. And I don’t like what the lifestyle does to my…

  • West Point Cadets

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    Andrew Thomas
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    As a child I did not stay at home and when I was, Eddie was always with me. Eddie’s father had worked for my father. I asked my father once, I know you are a millionaire, can you buy Eddie for me so I can always be around him. And he did. I never was…

  • Memories

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    Andrew Thomas
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    So I have a new theory about my memory recall. I am going through integration intentionally so I can tell you my story. I think I retired in 2019 and it then became my hobby to recall the memories that I had set aside that contained personal information. My treasures.

  • Transient Portfolio

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    Andrew Thomas
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    I have pieces of a short part of something I worked on as a child that discuses kids who watch, hand movements – hands that move too quickly, sudden sounds…. ..transitive passive. transitive active. Wherevere you go I go. translating emotions into words and motions into meanings. and this was the working title but I…