Spokane

I always used to say that I believed in God,

I just wondered if He believed in me.

Eddie passed away in 1988. He was my best friend in

Elementary school. He was my tutor. At night he and I

wander through the Mansions of God’s Heaven

in my dreams.

I miss him. I live alone. All of my Aunts an Uncles

have recently died. My parents have passed.

I have not seen my brother and sister in over a decade.

They now live out of town. I never had children or a wife.

I never felt from my childhood that it was safe, or affordable,

that I would wait until Heaven.

Until then I try to regain my past and tell you

about a kid, myself, who once heard Eddie’s voice

and wanted to be born.